Friday, February 6, 2009

Explanation of sorts

Hey gang

I may have gone a little “Postal” on that last blog entry. Unfortunately I do believe that Man is, for the most part, arrogant, greedy and selfish. There are exceptions of course.

Jack Grove sent me an E-mail of an interview with a man known to the world as Pastor Rick Warren, Author of “A purpose driven life”. I have summarized from this article (which I will include excerpts in this posting) that the reason Man is arrogant, selfish and greedy, is because he is internally focused, which to me seems to be the natural condition of a sentient being. So the credo of Man would be “My life is about me”. Instead, as I understand Pastor Warren, Man’s life is best suited if the focus is externally, in other words, a focus on a man’s Purpose in life.

Quote PRW: “You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems. If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, which is, my problem, my issues, my pain." But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.
What is the purpose of life? Life is preparation for eternity. We were made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven. One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body-- but not the end of me. Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one,or you're getting ready to go into another one. The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort. God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making
your life happy. We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.


I am not trying to make this a religious argument, Your beliefs are yours and these are Pastor Warrens. To me it is very reasonable and logical that whatever I focus on, it is going to manifest it’s self in my life. (ie “The Secrete”) If I focus on my pain and problems, then pain and problems are what I get, if I focus on material wealth, fame and power, this is also what I get. These are internally focused events. That’s why Man (me) is arrogant, selfish and greedy. Man is unlikely to focus on anything other than himself and his loved ones. If he does focus on God it is to see himself as a “better” person. (Internally focused)

Quote PRW: "This past year has been the greatest year of my life but also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer. I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believe that anymore. Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life. No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something
bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always
something good you can thank God for.
You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life. Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy. It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease. So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72. First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit. We made no major purchases. Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church. Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for the sick,and educate the next generation. Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years
since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating to be able to serve God for free. We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity? Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?
When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say,God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and
love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do."


That is what Pastor Rick and Kay Warren did.

Now, this is my point with this post. How many People that you know, would have done with the money earned from the book sales, that he and his wife did? How many people in the state of Florida do you think would do what they did? The United States, the world? Would YOU do what they did?

Nada, none, zip.

There aren’t nearly enough Rick and Kay Warrens in this world to make a difference. And I am not saying that if you are so inclined that it is not worth doing. I believe it is. But I doubt that I would actually do it.

One more point. Even though I am for environmental issues and I could ride a bicycle to the grocery store do you think I will? Would you? The earth will be overrun with human beings and its ecology will be destroyed in the next few hundred years. I see no way for it to survive other than for 80% of the human population should disappear. Even that is a short term delaying tatict.

I am not trying to bum every one out. I just think that if we (the human race) do not acknowledge the reality of the situation there is absolutely no hope of doing anything about it and other than this post I don’t think I will do anything about it either. So you see, I don’t believe Man will change even in the face of annihilation.

comments? khatch46@yahoo.com

AV

Monday, February 2, 2009

Happy days?

I haven't made an entry in my blog since Cutter died, not sure what that's about. I have been busy getting ready for craft shows. I had one in January which I did ok at. Many of the participants indicated that it was a terrible show. Being my first, I have no idea if it was acceptable or not. I suspect not. I have three more scheduled in Feb. and I have applied for several more in Mar & Apr. I plan to stay in West Palm Beach until at least the end of April. I am not liking the traveling thing as much as I thought I would. It seems that I want to put down roots and not move for awhile. Anyway, all is as well as can be expected in this economy.


Hollywood Beach boardwalk, Florida Jan 17 & 18, 2009



My booth



I have really been an optimist for most of my life, but the older I get the more pessimistic I seem to be become, I am not sure if it is age or the stupidity and greed of mankind which conspire to bring me down. I used to believe in the inherent goodness of man. Now I not so sure, or maybe I am sure and that's the problem. However, I have discovered a solution to the Mexican immigration problem. Let them all come over but force them to join the army. Then invade Mexico and have no exit strategy.

I wish there were a happy pill we could take to become oblivious to this mess, but all the drugs I know of have worse side effects or would multiply the problems we all ready have. I would like to cheer you up, but I think am not going to be much help in that arena, because I only see things as getting worse, sorry. It would truly be a miracle if Obama or anyone could turn our economy and world image around.

A few of months back (I think before Obama was elected, not that it matters), I wrote down my current observations of Americans and the world populace in general, and they were not pretty, so I never posted it, nor have I shared it with anyone but one close friend. And since I am in a particularly morose mood today I thought I would share it with all.





The sky IS falling and it is going to flatten us.

We as a nation are not what we believe ourselves to be. We are like self delusional American Idol wannabees and when we are told we suck, we lash out at our detractors.

We see ourselves as strong, benevolent, honorable, when in reality we are fat, petty, arrogant, greedy and self righteous. When Bin Laden sucker punched us we took his bait hook line and sinker. When he scurried under a rock somewhere we lumbered after him and all who we perceived were of his ilk. Like a wounded elephant we expend our energy and resources in ablind rage, confirming to the world what assholes we really are. We stepped right into Bin Laden's trap and he is reveling in our stupidly. What's more unbelievable is that we are a giant waiting to be toppled, a cancerous carcass that doesn't know its dying.

Individually our greed has been like millions termites eating away at the foundational rules and regulations, all the while patting ourselves on the back that were able to circumvent the safeguards in place (the American way). We are sucking the earth's resources dry and to hell with the consequences. Then believing that we are fit and strong, we set out to right where we had been wronged, but in reality was we are old, fat and delusional. In our struggles we have begun to hemorrhage financially, a stroke will soon send us stumbling to our knees. Because we are so huge it will take a while for us to hit the ground, but don't kid yourselves it is coming up faster than you think. I don't see any way we can stop it because we can't repair damage that we don't allow ourselves to see. Even if we could see it, there isn't enough time.

As you may have summarized I have never been a proponent of this war, but if you think we have high unemployment now? Bring home the soldiers. We are in a cluster f**k of galactic proportions. You, I and George and deserve everything that is coming, but unfortunately we will skate away on death's wheels, our children and our children's children will pay the price. I can only pray that I am the delusional one.

So cheer up everything's fine, because if you don't acknowledge it, it doesn't exist.

Now for the bad news, the rest of the world is as bad or worse. Everyone is out to get as much as they can or at the very least hang onto whatever they have, including me. No one wants' to sacrifice and who can blame them, because that other asshole isn't going to give up anything. And those who perceive that they do not have anything (or enough) will kill you to get what you have.

The best line regarding human beings was in the movie the "Matrix" when agent Smith was explaining to Morpheus what he has discovered about humans.

"Agent Smith: I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet."

One thing agent smith missed in his analysis was, our obsession for more, man's GREED.

I know of only one way that the earth can be spared an early demise and that is if somehow 80% of the earth's population vanished. Me included.
AV

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Rest easy friend

Cutter did not wake up this morning. He had been struggling with his breathing this past week but not as bad as some other times. I was sort of surprised because yesterday his breathing was clear and he seemed pretty spry. We went for a short walk around noon yesterday and he was fine, however he was huffing and puffing by the time we returned. It has been cold here, but I do not think that was a contributing factor, because we stayed in the trailer until the warmer part of the day.
I’m going to miss him.


From cutter

(April 1 the day we left West Palm) Are you sure were doing the right thing dad?



From cutter

(North GA overlook) How many other dogs have been here?


From cutter

Must be Hundreds.


From cutter




From cutter

Sleeping with his toy.


From cutter

So far it's been fun.


From cutter


I love this lady and she loves me.


From cutter

Having a gteat time, wish you were here.


From cutter




From cutter

I had a good time and now its time to go.

For more Cutter pics click on any photo

I have been getting things ready for the trip south. Picking up and disassembling my equipment. I will spend Thanksgiving here and pull out on the third of December. I plan to make it a two day trip to West Palm Beach. I’m looking forward to seeing my friends, especially Joellen.

I have been accepted into two craft fairs, one in Hollywood in January and one in Weston in February. I will post the dates in a later blog entry.
I don’t feel much like writing right now, so I’m going to sign off for now.
Love you all
Ken

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Slo Daz

Well not much happening here in Georgia, Cutters health continues to vary, some days he’s good and some days not so much. On the good days we go walking. The trees are starting to change color and mushrooms are popping up everywhere.


From Year one October




From Year one October



It has been cool this past week, but not so much that I haven’t been able to stay warm. I went to a couple of craft shows (not as a vendor) just to see what is being presented. I spoke with several jewelry vendors and asked how sales were doing. Almost all responded not as good as last year but they said they are doing pretty good (paying the bills).

I have been working on a new bracelet design. One thing I noticed at the shows, was that most of the wire wrappers limited the number of designs on each type of product (bracelets, rings, pendants, etc.) to 4 or 5. Perhaps I should do the same, it is worth considering. My problem is I get bored with the same old thing and want to create something new.

Like I said nothing much happening here, will be in Florida early Dec.

Love ya
AV

Monday, October 20, 2008

First craft show

Well I’m feeling well and Cutter seems to feel good as well. The other day he almost broke his neck trying to get out of the trailer to chase a cat, which was like Tim Conway on the Carol Burnett Show playing the old fireman coming to the rescue. Cutter never got close to the cat but he came back proud that he had chased it away.

I got my jewelry booth set and had my first show at the “Flint River Fall Festival” in Thomaston GA. on Saturday.

Here is my booth.
From Year one October

They had a pet show and neither of these cute little guys even placed.




From Year one October


There was a pretty good turn out,
but no one was buying. I sold $42.00 worth of merchandise. The space cost $30.00.
I was pretty disappointed, however this type of show is not really the venue for my jewelry. Most of the vendors were selling trinkets and junk. But they even said it was a poor show. Their highest priced items were around $25.00. Mine basically started at $30.oo. The next day, on Sunday, I visited a show in Concord GA. and the vendors there said they did very well on Saturday. I need to find more upscale shows. There are a bunch in Florida but the application process is pretty rigorous. I will keep trying and see what shakes out.

The temperature this morning 38 degrees, but the trailer was nice and warm with my little heater. The trailer is surprisingly well insulated. I’m not sure how cold it gets here in Oct / Nov but I think I can tuff it out until December when I head to Florida.

Hope things are good where you are.

Love ya
AV

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Sicker than the dog

I haven’t had a cold that consisted of more than the sniffles for one day in over ten years. Well I guess I paid for that luxury this past week.

Sunday (September 28) evening I felt a little off and I thought “am I coming down with a cold?”
Then Monday morning I felt fine and figured just a small glitch. By Monday afternoon I crawled into bed and didn’t get out until Thursday morning except to feed Cutter. I was miserable. By Thursday evening I was back in bed. Friday morning I managed to run to the store for provisions and slip back in bed. Saturday I felt pretty good in comparison and there was a craft fair nearby that I wanted to go to, so Sic Fiddy and I ran the twenty miles over to Gay, Georgia and checked out the “Cotton Pickin Fair”



From Year one October




From Year one October



It was pretty nice. Mostly down home country stuff. There were a couple of wire wrap jewelry makers that I checked out. Their stuff was much different than mine but it was interesting to see their work. I got back home a little after noon and slipped back into bed for the rest of the day. Today, (Sunday morning) I feel Blah, worn out, coughing with post nasal drip, bloated head and runny nose. This has got to end soon.

Cutter up date; Cutter seems like he is doing much better. He is getting up much quicker and has even chased a couple of squirrels. I may be down and out but he’s up and at’m.

The Jewelry web site that I mentioned was putting my stuff up is now up and running. Except that the shopping and purchase pages are not operational. But if you want to see it, the web address is http://www.magicalsilverjewelry.com/ . I think it is a beautiful site and I hope we move some jewelry through it. I am happy to be one of the artists on the site and I am honored to be grouped with artists so talented.

When I finish posting I’m going have a cup of chicken soup, lie down and read a book. This crap sucks.

AV

Monday, September 22, 2008

Long time no blog

Sorry folks, but I just haven’t felt much like making any blog entries lately. The adventure has become somewhat of a bummer. First, I left Old Corundum Campground on September 12th and returned to my aunt Martha’s in Molena, GA. Not that aunt Martha’s is a bummer, there’s a hook-up here and plenty of room to set up my equipment, it’s just that the people at Old Corundum were fun to be around, I made some good friends and the girls on “Estrogen Hill” had adopted me as one of their own. (see definition of Estrogen Hill at end of this blog entry). It was just hard to leave, but with all the medical bills from the accident, (more reason to be bummed) I could no longer afford to pay for camping when I could stay at aunt Martha’s for the cost of electricity. I am welcomed here with open arms and Martha and my multitude of cousins and cousin-in-laws make for an enjoyable stay. The main reason for my bummerness is Cutter. He is getting less and less able to get up on his hind leg; he is in some pain and just scoots his butt across the ground. The part that really tears me up is that other than the physical stuff he is alert and full of joy. I took him to the Vet and he explained that his age and the heart worms are taking their toll and there is not much I can do about it. Cutter is also becoming more dependent on me and doesn’t want to let me out of his sight. I find myself getting angry at him; I want to yell at him to cut the crap and just get up and walk like a normal three legged dog, but instead I pet him and sit with him and talk stupid dog stuff to him. Several times I have had to pick him up and put him into the trailer because he could not navigate the ramp. It feels a lot like when my mom passed away, in that for a long time she was incapacitated and was in pain. By the time she did pass, it was almost a relief that the suffering had ended. It was several years before I was able to grieve her loss. Not that Cutter is as important to me as my mom, but he does mean allot. It’s just that I can foresee, in the not too distant future, that I am going to have to put him down and I am not looking forward to that. He is getting worse much faster than I had expected. This is also placing my own mortality smack in my face. Let’s just say I have been in better spaces.

On the bright side I am getting better and better doing my stone cutting and wire wrapping. I have created several new designs and modifications, which pleases me. Here are a few of the latest.


From Year one September 2008


I really love this piece. It is a piece of rare Tampa Bay Coral.. It's rare because it is currently illegal to harvest this stone from the bay because people were destroying the bay collecting it.

From Year one September 2008

Click on the above pic and you can see more close up's of the other pendants

I have recently negotiated with a couple of ladies in Lauderdale, who are assembling a website featuring several jewelry artists, to include my stuff. As soon as the site is operational I will inform you. They have already taken pictures of some of my stuff and now all I have to do is to write a brief “bio” with a photo and my part is done. I am struggling with the bio, sometimes I have difficulty tooting my own horn.

Soon I will have enough stuff to begin selling at craft and art venues. I will start with local, small town affairs and work my way up to larger art shows. I anticipate things to be rough, with the economy the way it is and jewelry not being an item of necessity, but if I can make this work enough to sustain myself it will be better than crawling around on the ground repairing lifts. I sold a fair amount of my pieces to the campers at Old Corundum, which was nice and it boosted my ego regarding the quality and marketability of my work.

I’m not going to promise, but I will try to make my entries a little more often than in recent weeks and I will keep you apprised of Cutter’s progress. That part will suck but I know you will want to know.

I ended up selling the trailer I bought, mainly to help pay the doctor bills. I really hated doing that but it was the best choice under the circumstances.

Good, bad or indifferent the adventure continues because none of us get out of here alive, not even dogs.

AV.

Estrogen Hill: Old Corundum Campground is basically divided into two areas. There is the main campground which contains at least fifty or more camp sites and then there is an area I call “Estrogen Hill” which is outside the main park and across Nickajack road. There are about nine or ten spaces up on the hill. While I was camped there the occupants of the hill were four single women and myself, (I was in heaven) thus the name Estrogen Hill.